First Month of Motherhood

So the craziness and the shock of labour and delivery has withered away, but the love and passion I have for our new baby grows and grows as the days go by. It has been hard, but hard in a real rewarding way. I am SO blessed to be able to breastfeed because it creates a real closeness between us and I just love to nurse her. It really is what 'they,' were made for. God is cool. This miracle of ours is growing so fast; I believe she will be long and tall like her Daddy. She has started to really hold her head up and move it side to side. (mind you, she could hold her head up at birth *** strong baby ***) She totally recognizes who Daddy is and she loves his beard. She looks at him with wonder, but will quickly see something black and white and focus on that. (shadows and such) Her hair is getting longer in the back, as much of you don't see, cause I don't usual take pictures of her back, but maybe today I will so I can show you what I mean. We have plans for Halloween to go to our friend's church, where they are having a Harvest Festival. There Ramona gets to trick or treat out of people's trunks and bob for apples along with all the other festivities the kiddies get to partake it. I have a FIRST HALLOWEEN outfit, which is the next closest thing to a costume. I just fall more and more in love with her everyday. Its amazing. I know motherhood is hard ( the birth assistant kept reminding me during labour) But that doesn't mean it cant be great as well. A lot of things are hard in life...and that's just the way it is, but becoming someone's everything, every need and every touch teaches you more of the way God intended us to be, selfless. Rae was made for us. Now that is special.I can't wait to tell her all this when she is old enough to understand. And tell her all about the poops she did while in Daddy's lap, which means, he changes her ! I will often just stare at her tiny small nose and her perfect lips as she sleeps soundly. Its amazing how well they sleep. She goes totally limp. And then she has times when she is dreaming and yelps like a puppy and her eyes flicker like she is running somewhere fast. Its really amusing to watch. Her cute little feet and belly button and toes were all formed inside me, its NUTS when you stop to think about it, don't you think? She is so incredible beautiful to me. I melt every day when she wakes from a nap and her eye lids slowly open to reveal her big, bright blue eyes, they just make it all worth it and I say to myself, ' this is my little girl !.' Matt and I are having a blast with her. Its a very neat time in our lives and God has revealed himself over and over again. He is real and blesses those who seek after Him! Well, here I go into the next chapter of Motherhood; month 2. I hope I remember to write these as the years go by, maybe it can compile into a book. We'll see. I am sure ya'll enjoy the pics a lot more than my ramble, so please continue to visit for updates ! with Love, Mama martin